Spritual growth

I don't know what society tell us or mostly yell at us. that be successful be this & that. I know end reality still I want to say . that if a person doesn't know him or herself the best .then they don't anything about the outside world. life is life bz at every stage we learn about ourselves and accept our true nature . my spiritual journey is started when all the illusion gets fall just in an hour. I was so shocked just bz I wanted that. It gets needed in that phase of my life. I know what kind of person I was that time wakeup at sharp 5 doing house chores, getting ready for stretch 3 hours workout. came back going temple all alone. that time was as far as a god from me. it was all of a sudden that I get liable my self oh now I'm on the path of spirituality. now I think I don't need to see myself as a spritual person by I'm very far from there. lost in illusion again. man /woman made illusion. where reality does not knock on your door. each person has their their journey. I believe that we all go through the same thing .with different circumstances, different people different names that mean we all bloom at the end of the day in the same garden. with the different fragrances. I don't know more see god as a god. by what I have pictured god that was coming from the tv, temple Autry. what osho said one day that why god look like us? bz we created an image of God such as us. if a horse will Crete a picture of god do he also do the same? a horse god also looks the way a horse look. hope I'm able to make his thought the way he tried to say. big bang theory very heavy sentence ut is. bez carries a whole universe in it. scientist says that before there was no sound in the universe then it must be all black no light no sun no moon nothing. this topic is as mysterious, as the murder mystery arruus i thought tgis blog also going to be in vain as just single mistjes & my whole writing goes in vain.